How interesting life is!

So recently i've been thinking about what I want! Something that I may have wanted for a while now but never really seeking it out due to certain reasons... But now that its so near and so close at hand I really don't know what I want anymore! And for some reason its driving me nuts from the inside out just because I have no flipping idea what to do or want anymore. It is so easy for me to personally want something so bad then when its right there in arms length criticize it and draw away or at the same time draw away and want much from something that I don't even know i want!Owh I am a such a cancerian! IDEAS???